I’ve got a heart lost in (your loving) kindness April 22, 2014
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“I’ve got a heart lost in kindness / A mind that’s mostly mindless / I can hold you up fore’er / I won’t let you down, I swear…” – Honeypot by Bob Schneider
“It was so inspiring and wonderful to be able to support MBS and share their mission with such an awesome group of yogis!” – Kari A.’s message to the 18 yogis who donated $349 at our donation-based class.
Every once in a while, I have one of those “yoga changed my life” moments. Sometimes the changes are small; sometimes they are large – and sometimes I don’t recognize them until years down the line.
On Saturday I had one of those “years down the line” moments as I stood in front of 19 people who had come to Nokomis Yoga for a donation-based class in support of Mind Body Solutions and the KISS MY ASANA yogathon. As I described how my first yoga experience tied into my first yoga experience with Matthew Sanford, my voice cracked and I almost cried because I realized I was achieving a goal: I was actively and mindfully giving back what I had been given.
Robert Boustany was my first yoga teacher. Before I ever met him, Robert taught me yoga was a healing practice – that not only could the physical practice be adapted for an injury or an illness, it had a holistic health application and could be most beneficial when someone is injured or ill. When I took my first class, he taught me yoga was more than a physical practice.
Over the years, as I studied with Robert and teachers trained by Robert, I was also coming in contact with people whose only intersection to yoga seemed to be me. These people had questions – questions, which (more often than not) centered around how yoga could help them deal with a specific discomfort or disease. Early on, I didn’t have any answers; but, I knew the answers were out there – and I knew my teachers had some of those answers.
But, these people I kept running into, most of them didn’t want to go to my teachers. They wanted answers from me, because they could see I was benefiting from yoga on a lot of different levels. So, I thought, one day I’ll go through teacher training just so I can deepen my own practice and answer some questions.
Fast forward 10+ years, and I’m in a northern town, standing on the opposite end of the Mississippi River from my hometown, practicing yoga with some of my yoga students (and a bunch of gorillas), while we’re being led by a man who is paralyzed from the waist down – and I rediscover that thing I had almost forgotten was accessible to everyone: Joy.
“Every time I take a look around me / I have to smile.”
– The World Exploded Into Love by Bob Schneider
Over the last few weeks, I have been overwhelmed by the loving kindness of my students. Some have generously offered their thoughts, prayers, and dedications to me and mine. Some have shared with me how they’re sharing their practice with their family and friends. Some have shared why they show up. Still others just show up – and make sure others show up.
However, the thing that continues to blow my mind is how yoga has affected people to the point that they are willing to give money to an organization and program dedicated to transforming “trauma, loss and disability into hope and potential by awakening the connection between mind and body.” They are willing to support something (to paraphrase Bob) that can only be seen “when you close your eyes / and open your heart.” The are willing to support the mind-body connection!
Saturday, I looked around at 19 open hearts – some of whom don’t even have a regular physical yoga practice – and I could feel the connection between my first yoga class, the handful of classes I’ve taken from Matthew Sanford, and the classes I’m teaching now. Saturday, I looked around at 19 open hearts – most of whom have never met or practiced yoga with Matt (or anyone considered “disabled”) – and I could feel the connection between our hearts and the hearts of the people who get to practice because we showed up on the mat. Saturday, I felt the spirit!
An overflowing cup of thanks to Kari’s friends, plus the Nokomis Yoga, Downtown-Minneapolis YMCA, and Blaisdell YMCA students who (collectively) have joyfully donated $544 to the MBS KISS MY ASANA yogathon. Thank you, also, to everyone who is on the mat this month.
Each of you, in your own way, is helping Mind Body Solutions achieve it’s goals. But, we’re not even close to done.
The KISS MY ASANA yogathon as a sing along moment. And, as Bob says, “Don’t fight the sing along.” Donate today!
~ LOKAH SOMASTAH SUKHINO BHAVANTU ~
LOOKING FOR ANSWERS WITHIN THE QUESTIONS December 16, 2012
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Q & A
Anyone who comes to my class knows I love stories. And, they can also tell you: I am an equal opportunity storyteller. This time of year is full of some of my favorite stories. Take Chanukah, for instance: within this celebration of light is the story of “Not Much,” the story of “Give It All You’ve Got,” and an opportunity to explore the original meaning of the word “miracle.” On Wednesday people all over the world were looking for and/or celebrating miracles. It wasn’t just that some people saw 12/12/12 as an auspicious date; it was also the middle of Chanukah, the Feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe, and the beginning of the Baha’i month of Masa’il (“Questions”).
Personally, I was excited, all fired up, inspired and ready for an “intensely fun, intensely intense” practice on Saturday.
Then, on Friday night, when I heard about yet another mass shooting and a death in my family, I was having a hard time focusing on fun.
It doesn’t matter if it’s today; yesterday; almost 2, 311 years ago (around 300 BCE); or nearly 100 years before that, when bad things happen we question. However, our questions don’t just stop with, “Why?” or “How could this happen?”
The closer we are to the tragedy; the bigger the scale of the tragedy; or the more innocent the people involved, the more we question. Sometimes, we question everything we believe to be true. We may question our faith, the very foundation of our existence, the things (literally and figuratively) that support us when we struggle. And, more often than not, we seek answers from that same foundation or truth – be it God, science, our leaders, or our community.
In every culture and in every heart, there is a word for that ultimate truth; for that something universal within us, and all around us. (Even science has subatomic particles that are in everything.) And in every heart, there is a question we can direct to that source, a question, which can also be an answer.
מכבים गायत्री
In Exodus 15, “Moses and the sons of Israel,” sing the praises of God to God and in doing so they cite a number of marvels (also known as miracles). When a band of brothers/a father and his sons/a clan of priests chose Maccabee as their moniker and battle cry, they not only used a variation of a word meaning “hammer,” they used an acronym for a Torah verse (Shemot/Exodus 15:11): “Who is like You…among the mighty? Glorious in holiness fearful in praises, performing wonders (miracles)?”
The Maccabees took their question to the source and within the question they found their answer: the source. They also found inspiration.
I think what they did is similar to what Rainer Maria Rilke means in Letters to a Young Poet, when he writes, “Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you will not be able to live them…. Live your questions now, and perhaps even without knowing it, you will live along some distant day into your answers.”
My plan for today’s practice: Embody a question (addressed to the source) that simultaneously inspires and answers. Everyone would have their own personal question(s) and their own way of articulating “the source.” The tricky part would be getting everyone on the same wavelength.
In yoga, we talk about the light (or energy) within us, and all around us. When we move through our physical practice, our physical focus may change from moment to moment, but we have the opportunity to maintain a single-pointed mental focus, a meditation point. Adding mantra to our movement can strength our focus, and get us all on the same wavelength.
Today, I used the Gayatri Mantra to get us on the same wavelength.
People using a mantra for seated meditation often use a mala (“garland” or “ring”) to maintain japa (“repetition” or “remembering”) without excess effort (ajapa-japa or “constant awareness”). In the physical practice, using kirtan (mantra with music) is a great way to achieve a similar meditative state. More often than not, when I use kirtan in a class, the sequencing is progressive in the sense that each time we complete a cycle we begin it again and then add an additional pose or two. Occasionally, I will even get “asana-happy” (or maybe it’s “prana-happy”) and sequence in a mandala (“circle”).
Today, I wanted to go even deeper. Inspired by this idea of living the question, addressed to the source, I took another look at the Gayatri Mantra itself.
When I’ve used the Gayatri Mantra in the past, I’ve emphasized various translations and focused on the story of Visvamitra, the sage responsible for the mantra, and the peak pose named after him. But, this time I looked at the structure of the mantra.
One of the unique aspects of the Gayatri Mantra is its most common name comes from its meter. When in Sanskrit, a “great utterance” is followed by three (3) eight-syllable lines (padas or “feet”). What happens, I wondered, if an extended inclined sequence was followed by three (3) sequences, which each contained eight poses or pose variations? And what would happen if all the sequences put together made up a mandala? And what would happen if the repetition of the mandala prepared us for Visvamitrasana? And can I even get a room full of completely different bodies and practices to the point where their hips, hamstrings, shoulders, triceps/biceps, back, and core (not to mention their wrists) can even safely consider the possibility?
So many questions…that today become so many answers.
When we are moved to move, and we move to seek answers within ourselves, do we become the answer? When we live the question, as Rilke suggests, and our question is, “What can we do to make things better, brighter, to change this great wrong or keep it from happening again?” do we become the change?
OFF THE MAT
Right now, lots of people are asking questions and calling for change, personally and globally. Lots of people are also insisting they know all the answers – sometimes insisting so fervently, in fact, that they can’t even hear themselves let alone the people around them.
I’m not claiming to have any answers…just more questions. I also have a desire to be still and quiet enough to hear all the answers when they come.
And, just like I do when I am seeking guidance, answers, and inspiration from the source of all things, I think some of our questioning and listening needs to be focused on the people who are the source of these tragedies, people who are in so much pain they want to hurt themselves and the people around them.
Finally, I hope that when the right answers come, we are strong enough, wise enough, and courageous enough to recognize and live those answers.
Vinyasa Class Notes
Key Asana Sequence: Anjaneyasana (“Crescent Lunge”) with Inverted Namaskar to Anjaneyasana to Modified Virabhadrasana III (“Warrior III”) to 3 variations of Virabhadrasana III to Urdhva Prasarita Eka Padasana (“Standing Splits”) with Squats, Seated Sage Twist, and Gomukhasana (“Cow Face”)
Song(s) That Had To Make The Cut: multiple versions “Gayatri Mantra”
Song(s) Played Loud For Motivation: multiple versions of “Gayatri Mantra”
Song(s) Related To Theme (if you think about it): “Princes of the Universe” by Bear McCreary
~ NAMASTE ~
A Little Love, A Little Kindness Go A Long Way July 22, 2010
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“Two households, both alike in dignity” – Romeo and Juliet, opening line by William Shakespeare
A statement Kim Jeblick made at a recent Dharma Yoga workshop really stuck with me: the first words in a Sanskrit text are the most important; everything else comes from those first words.
It seems to me that the same can be said about a Shakespearean text. Take for example, Romeo and Juliet: a tragedy which starts off by reinforcing the fact that these two groups of people are exactly the same. Sure, we eventually learn one family has a daughter, one a son; but, each family clearly loves their own child wholeheartedly and wishes them the very best. At the beginning of the play, the lovers feel safe, secure, happy, peaceful, and healthy enough to be curious. They see in each other a mirror, a soul mate, someone who comes from the same place and wants the same things out of life. Of course, the tragedy is that the families don’t see the same thing. The families forget the opening line; they get hooked and start focusing on their differences rather than on their similarities.
In our own lives, we are simultaneously the lovers and their families. We are surrounded by our own image, mirrored in the visages of others. When we recognize the best part of ourselves in another, we become curious, try to get to know them, and we wish them the best of everything. A lot of times, however, we focus on the differences – and, just like in the play, conflict arises.
Here’s a question to consider: Does conflict always result in tragedy?
Shakespeare would say no, and wrote the comedies to prove it. Some of the people who had the privilege of seeing Romeo and Juliet: Choose Your Own Ending! at the Capital Fringe Festival this month would also say no.
What about in your own life: How often are your personal conflicts resolved amicably and without hard feelings? Keep in mind, every real life tragedy does not automatically end in bloodshed. In fact, the biggest tragedies we experience on a regular basis are (1) not recognizing ourselves in others (i.e., not recognizing someone worthy of our love) and (2) not wishing the very best to someone we love just because we don’t agree with something they’ve said or done. Historically, Metta Meditation can be seen as a prescription for conflict resolution.
LOKAH – World(s); habitat(s); planets; universe; plane of existence; people; all living beings
SAMASTA – All inclusive; all kinds of (root word: “sama” = same)
SUKHINO – Happy; very happy (root word: “sukha” = happiness, delight, joy, pleasure, comfort)
BHAVANTU – Let them become; they will have to; may there be
Mettā (Pāli; Devanagari: मेत्ता) or Maitrī (Sanskrit) meditation is a way to offer loving-kindness, friendship, benevolence. Most people are familiar with seated or walking meditations, traditional to Buddhist traditions. Some Buddhist traditions also do a written meditation. In yoga, meditations are done seated, walking, lying in Savasana, and even during asana. In fact, when practicing 108 Sun Salutations for the equinoxes and solstices, each round can be dedicated in the same way each round of the mettā meditation (described in link below).
Traditionally, the physical practice of yoga (Hatha Yoga), in any form, is a way to prepare the body-mind-spirit for deep meditation. As mentioned above, the physical practice can also BE the meditation. My personal practice has always been a moving meditation so I try to bring that same experience to the classes I teach. Sometimes we add a mantra to the breath (In this case: Inhale Loving; Exhale Kindness). Often I encourage people to view various parts of their body as an extension of their breath, their heart, and sometimes their love. Over the past few weeks I’ve even invited people to visual their love shooting out of their fingers and heels, kind of like in a comic book. It may sound silly, but sometimes we forget arms are meant for hugging. And, everything we do can be an expression of love – especially if we make that our intention.
PRACTICING Mettā (Pāli; Devanagari: मेत्ता) or Maitrī (Sanskrit) Meditation:
Before you begin, familiarize yourself with the meditation breakdown. (NOTE: The Yale School of Medicine website had one of the best breakdowns I’ve seen. That link is now busted; however, the meditation breakdown can be found at this mindfulword.org site.) Review it and the visualization guide below. Once you understand the dedications, give yourself permission to really work on them one at a time. It’s important to notice how you feel (emotionally, mentally, and physically) at each stage. Also, notice how those sensations change as you progress. Regardless of the form you decide to use for your meditation, get comfortable and remember this is a practice.
(BIG TIP: Set an alarm clock so you don’t get distracted thinking about time.)
- Get comfortable. Begin by focusing on your breath. Don’t try to control it. Just notice the interaction between your breath and your body. Allow your breath to naturally deepen itself, and to naturally bring you into the present moment. Relax.
- Visualize yourself holding a baby. This baby can be a human child, a puppy, a kitten, a duckling. The type of baby doesn’t matter so long as you you find it adorable. Feel the baby’s warmth and the way it snuggles into you. Notice it’s peaceful expression. Now, focus on the baby’s breath. Notice it is deep and steady. See if you can match the baby’s breath, so that your breath becomes deep and steady. Feel the exchange of breath you are sharing with the baby: You each inhale love from one the other; you each exhale kindness to the other. Notice how you feel. Notice how your brow and shoulders soften; how your breath deepens.
- Begin to recite the meditation for yourself (out loud or silently). Breath at least one round of breath (deep breath in; deep breath out) between each line. Notice how you react to each offering/blessing/idea. Repeat as needed. If you feel resistance (e.g., distraction, the urge to fidget or scratch an itch), bring your awareness back to your breath and/or practice the 4 R’s (Recognize, Refrain, Relax, Resolve – more on these later) before proceeding.
- Visualize how you would feel and appear when you are safe and secure; peaceful and happy; healthy and strong; at ease, etc.
- Visualize the person(s) associated with the next round of dedications. Imagine how it would feel to give them a hug and have them hug you back. Steady your breath and feel the exchange of breath (Inhale Love; Exhale Kindness). Begin to recite the meditation accordingly (inserting gender; repeating as desired; and noticing your reaction).
- Visualize how the other person(s) feel and appear when safe and secure; peaceful and happy; healthy and strong; at ease, etc.
- Repeat steps 6 & 7 for the remaining rounds. When you get to the round for the “difficult person” consider referring to them as Shiva Rea does: as “precious jewels.” This is a great way to remind yourself that the person who pushes your buttons is valuable. You might even want to use their name. Also, leave space in your visualization for the precious jewel(s) to be shocked by your hug and, maybe, to take a while before hugging you back.
- After the final round, chant “Lokah Samasta Sukhino Bhavantu: May all beings everywhere be happy and be free. May my thoughts words and deeds somehow contribute to that happiness and that freedom. Om Shanti Shanti Shanti Om**”
This can be an intense practice. Save time to sit quietly or lie down before moving on with the remainder of your day or night.
May you be happy and free! May this somehow contribute to your happiness and your freedom! Peace, peace, peace (to you and to everyone you encounter)!
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Note on translations: Since I am not a Sanskrit scholar, I usually cross reference several sources when I’m looking up Sanskrit translations. I recently came across vedabase.net, which cross references words with their various meanings, as they appear in ancient text (which, of course reminds me of the OED). Naturally, given my lit degree, I am predisposed to consider this a pretty useful resource. (Root word translations from Light on Yoga by B. K. S. Iyengar) (** “Om” brings supreme awareness/consciousness. “Shanti” means peace. When chanted the last “Shanti” can be extended which essential means, “Peace, because I said so/it!”)
Going With The Flow / Being In The Zone April 18, 2009
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Since I started teaching 4 new classes, I’ve been using the meaning of vinyasa (“to place in a special way;” “to flow”) as the theme of the week. It’s also been a handy reminder for myself as things change, or don’t go as planned. Naturally, some of the things I come up with as I explore a theme won’t fit into a 60 or 75-minute class – at least not if I’m going to guide the asanas and finish in 60 or 75 minutes. So, just for you, here are some thoughts on going with the flow and being in the zone.
(Take a deep breath. Breathing as you read can make this a guided meditation.)
Imagine two people – two people who seem very much the same and enjoy similar activities. Of course, they are individuals, and one of the things distinguishing them is the way everything seems to fall into place for one person, but not the other.
Both encounter a detour when they’re hungry: one discovers their new favorite restaurant; the other gets home too angry and hungry to cook. An appointment canceled at the last minute enables one person to catch up with an old friend, or meet a new one. The other person fumes, because someone was inconsiderate enough to stand them up; and the anger keeps anyone from getting close enough to talk.
The more one goes with the flow, the more they get in the zone, and the more things fall into place. The more the other fights the flow, the angrier and more frustrated he or she becomes. (Deep breath in. Deeper breath out.)
Maybe you know these people. Maybe you are one of these people. Either way, have you ever considered that the luck and good fortune, what some may call blessings, experienced by one person is more than randomness? Have you ever considered the possibility that the difference between these two people is simply a matter of perspective? What happens if you consider that everything, even the annoying stuff, happens in a special way? (Take a deep breath.) Consider what happens if being lucky or experiencing your blessings is simply a matter of going with the flow, instead of fighting it.
(Take the deepest breath you’ve taken all day. Sigh it out.)
Let’s alter the scenario slightly. Imagine the two people are athletes playing team sports. (I’m thinking football, basketball, or soccer – even team cycling. If you’re from the north, you may be thinking hockey.) Whether you are trying to score with the ball (or puck); trying to stop the person with the ball (or puck); or just trying to cross the finish line first, there are obstacles (read: other athletes) in your way. When an athlete is in the zone, he or she sees the obstacles – as well as the holes opening up as the play moves from one moment to the next. Treating life like the sweetest of running backs means you go with the flow, finding the holes and going through, even around, the obstacles; taking whatever detours are needed to reach the goal or the finish line.
It looks like magic. But, it’s just perspective.
Meanwhile, the athlete who fights the flow doesn’t go very far, is constantly frustrated and engaged in conflict. Just imagine what happens if you treat everything in life the way a lineman treats the other team. It’s not pretty. And, even when you win, it’s painful.
Don’t get me wrong. Everyone struggles with things that seem to block their path. Going with the flow won’t eliminate hardship and challenge from your life. There will still be places you’ll never go; things you’ll never do; people you’ll never meet; and (as my teacher Paul reminded me) people you’ll never see again. Just don’t spend too much time thinking about such things – unless you’re thinking about how you can change them. Most importantly: Don’t let such things keep you from living and loving your life.
Instead, think about the places, things, and people who enrich your life. Think about how you enrich the lives of others. (And don’t forget to breathe.)
Take a lesson from people who make life look easy. Remember, they still experience loss, heartache, heart break, debilitating disease, and failure. They’ve had bad days. But, they keep moving – and try to enjoy whatever comes their way.
On a playing field, on the mat, in your life: Everything is vinyasa. Everything is placed in a special way. We just have to remember, we haven’t seen life’s play book. We don’t know what’s coming. All we can do, is breathe into the possibility, go with the flow, get in the zone, and find the hole. Swoosh.
Vinyasa Class Notes
Key Asana Sequence: Twisting Lunge to Utthita Parsvakonasana (“Extended Side Angle”) to Reverse Triangle to Virabhadrasana II (“Warrior Two”) to Reverse Triangle.
Song(s) That Had To Make The Cut: “Static in the Flow” by the Devlins
Song(s) Played Loud For Motivation: “Fix You” by Coldplay
Song(s) Related To Theme (if you think about it): “Pink Moon” by Nick Drake and “Life in a Northern Town” by Dream Academy
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